May 2012
26 posts
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bunbunfied
“We’d said we’d keep in touch. But touch is not something you can keep; as soon...”
– David Levithan (via mortal-husk)
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Here I am, browsing through the Facebook profiles of my last 2 exes. Glad they’re doing well. Happier that I’m doing even better since they left. I guess for once I’ve found closure. Looking through their profiles..I realize I don’t feel anything. Which is good. Means I’m over them.
Good bye Yew Tee boys..you’ll be sorely missed by me. Not. Not now, not ever....
Your smile scares the bejeezus out of me. I’m scared that if I fall, I might just fall like the rain.
But we are not yet there. There, where we cling to our names for old times’ sake, and clouds would read like empty pages at last. But we are not yet there.
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How many nights have I suffered
this identical, mildly tragic plot?
As usual, I will wake up in my bed
before anything else can happen.
In time, the dream stops coming.
I did not even learn his name.
Only that his eyes were like mine -
long, desolate roads leading
nowhere.
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Longing
So I grow up longing for another, with the windy city left behind for my lover. Will you ever know the way I cry? You were gone that day, so you may have missed my good bye. Oh, and sometimes in my dreams I hear you say “if you really care you won’t go away.”
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Maybe
Maybe the key is to expect nothing. And when you’re not all caught up in what you want to happen, something great will come along.
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Monday Blues
Sometimes I really wonder if it’s just my behavior that pushes people away or it’s just that we’re not on the same frequency. Or do I push people away too much? But it’s only because they’ve finally proven to not be worthy of my time and concern what? I’m trying to keep myself happy by eliminating all the redundant people and apparently I’ve been labelled...
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Revamped-WIP
My revamped portfolio. Should I add in a short paragraph of rationale?
Cassie - King Of Hearts
You are the prince of charm Seduction is your art You’ll never play my love You’re just my king of hearts You are my king of hearts If you’re winning You might as well admit it And you can come and get it Or you can just forget it, forget it If you’re winning You might as well admit it And you can come and get it Or you can just forget it, forget it You are the prince of...
Hell Yes.
Can you smell that? Ya, I CAN SMELL MY FRIDAY COMING. Anyhooos. Oh yeah, I know, I know..I ditched you. So what? It’s only cos you were trying to get into my pants so fast, I’m not sure if you like a person or a pussy better. Sorry bro, you’re not getting any. Besides, why the f were you so clingy anyway? Do you not understand it when I say “please stop asking me questions,...
I did not sign up for this
It’s not that I move on fast, I just think it’s a waste of time to yearn for someone who doesn’t feel for you anymore.
It’s not that I’m heartless, I’ve just been hurt so many times before that I have to protect myself..so I end up hurting people along the way.
I don’t need an insecure, inferior man to be by my side cos honestly, I’d be fine being...
Find Yourself
Drawn into the backdrop here You could fade, you could fade away Bright lights on a starless night Burn a hole in the dying day
Looking at life through a loaded gun Take your best shot, aim it at the sun Looking at life through a loaded gun You know you’ll find
You’ll find yourself, you’ll find yourself alone You’ll find yourself, you’ll find yourself
Drawn into the darkness here With...
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Change #1
The only flower I love to receive is sunflower. The only time I’ve ever received sunflowers was back in 2008 I believe..3 stalks from the first bf.
So yes, I’m going to grow sunflowers at my front yard. Suck it bitches, while you’re out partying, getting drunk, having fun (…I want also..), I’ll be watering my sunflowers and cutting down on the nightlife.
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Down Memory Lane
I’ve missed you. No matter how hard I try to not succumb to this feeling, despite looking ahead, keeping myself occupied, at the end of the day I still miss you. I hate this. I hate how I know you don’t want me in your life and I’ve tried my very best to refrain myself from wanting to text you..I MISS YOU.
Gosh! Why is it so damn difficult to just forget you? Yeah I know...
Wordplay Tuesday
Amnesia on empty streets in an empty apartment.
Every now and then I’d fill my pages with new words. Words I’ve learnt or find intriguing. Words like ‘amnesia’, ‘inquisitive’, ‘inextricable’ makes me squirm in excitement. I might just wet my pants (leggings) after all.
I love putting words together. Words such as ‘spacebunny’,...
What's your secret?: I had these walls to protect... →
blogsecret:
I had these walls to protect me that took years to build. I fell in love with you and trusted you with my vulnerability. I was drawn in by your strength and dynamic personality. Our relationship would’ve died a long time ago if I hadn’t let you win whenever we fought and argued. You had…
“Things don’t always turn out well. Sometimes they don’t turn out at all....”
– Rob Bell: Sex God (via wedreamtlove)
My heart..
is like an apartment. Some rooms are empty, some room hold things that are broken, some rooms have all the doors open. Some rooms have glass all over the ground. The only difference between my heart and the apartment is that nobody lives in there. Not even me.
What's your secret?: Life is more difficult than... →
blogsecret:
Life is more difficult than anyone seems to understand. It’s like the very first thing I do, when I wake up, is make a conscious decision to keep going that day. If I don’t make that decision I’m afraid that I might not be able to wake up ever again. Some days it’s harder, sometimes I battle…
5, 20, 100 or infinite?
Hi, let’s take all the footsteps we can.
Just to get far away from love and confusion.
March 2012
5 posts
One of my theories..
To my other half:
I’m sorry if sometimes I evolve to be a psychotic clingy bitch that can’t get enough of you after all of these time. I was thinking hard, recalling the days when relationship failed and I keep questioning myself why.
Now I know the answer to that. My first relationship kinda set this benchmark (I HATE THAT). He was there 24/7, literally a phone call away and I could...
February 2012
7 posts
“Nobody knows it, but you’ve got a secret smile and you use it only on me....”
Rant
There comes a time when everything else gets too comfortable that we take it for granted. I’ve experienced that back then and I’ve a feeling that I might experience it now. Of course I try not to think too much about it but hey, we have to admit that when it comes to a being in a relationship, these things just start to kick in no matter what. And it’s always the small things...
TJS1
TJS = Things Justin Says
January 2012
2 posts
April 2011
9 posts
Well..I’ve gotten used to work. Everything’s such a repetition. Looking forward to next week where I’ll be working for 5 days. I hate being called cute. I hate to say this but..I’m in a place where I don’t feel anything much anymore because people lie over and over again and I’m sick of it. I need a break.
Oh..I’m trying to ask if I could get the whole...
Tonight.. 我忘了回家的路。
FYI
..enough with the empty talks on how you’ll be there for me. I’ve grown up and learned how to judge people along the way so I pretty much know who’s gonna be there and who’s gonna screw me over so I don’t need you to tell me shit. Goodness gracious wtf is wrong with you? I don’t need your empathy. Don’t fucking sympathize with me. Get your pretentious...
March 2011
2 posts
Late Night Movie
Wonder when will I turn in. Reached home at about 1130pm and went to 85 to accompany Ryan for supper. I only had milk tea cos wasn’t feeling hungry. Caught the movie ‘The Eagle’ at 0150am and I was on the verge of peeing towards the end of the show, couldn’t hold it any longer. The moment the show ended, we rushed to relieve ourselves. Gah the toilet sure is scary at 4 plus...